Thursday, December 28, 2006
Just one more thing...
I hope you had a good day!!
toodles! ; )
Thursday, December 21, 2006
Happiness...
What's the cause? ...Maybe it's going away and then coming home...maybe it's the Christmas season...maybe it's the blessings of the last few months : )...who knows.
but, i'm thankful. and absolutely happy.
Saturday, December 16, 2006
: )
I heart...
.Christmas.
.home.
.Christmas lights.
.cookies.
.movies.
.Christmas music.
~ happiness ~
~ peace ~
~ joy ~
~ hope ~
~ faith ~
~ love ~
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Feet Wet
standing at the water's edge, i feel a trembling fear
as the waves crash 'round my ankles
feel the thunder in my ear
i feel the change is coming, the wind is at my back
but doubt overtakes me and my eyes turn to black
my past lurks behind me, keeping me on guard
i don't want to chance it, these steps are just too hard
i know He's behind me but what can i do
i'm frail, i'm human, and i don't want to fail you
i can't walk on water with these dirty feet
but He can walk on water and He'll carry me
so put your arms around me carry me to sea
waves knock against me but i know I'm free
from death and loneliness, darkness, despair
this life is choppy but i don't care
Stephen Speaks, listen here...
Monday, December 11, 2006
Yay!
Now...to take the plunge into this week of tests, tests and more tests....might not have time to update much this week because I will be buried beneath all my books and notes!
Sunday, December 10, 2006
Thank You
Saturday, December 09, 2006
Tis a wonderful Saturday...
And my computer is being weird and not allowing me to use my apostrophe. Yeah, so not conjuctions for me....
New found favorite study music...
listen here
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
So exciting!!!
-AND-
March: Shane and Shane
Saturday, December 02, 2006
"The Potter's Hand"
"The Potter's Hand"
Darlene Zschech
Beautiful Lord
Wonderful Savior
I know for sure all of my days
Are held in Your hand
Crafted into Your perfect plan
You gently call me
Into Your presence
Guiding me by Your Holy Spirit
Teach me dear Lord
To live all of my life
Through Your eyes
I'm captured by Your holy calling
Set me apart
I know You're drawing me to Yourself
Lead me Lord I pray
Take me, mold me
Use me, fill me
I give my life
To the Potter's hand
Call me, guide me
Lead me, walk beside me
I give my life
To the Potter's hand
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Memories...
Saturday, November 25, 2006
Nothin' Quite Like a Smile...
God's timing is amazingly perfect, if only I could recognize that all of the time. I am truly grateful for all the blessings He has bestowed on me this year, they are innumerable...
He is the everlasting Jehovah Jireh, my provider...
Sunday, November 19, 2006
Whaaaaatttt?
i'm counting on that 3 hour study session tomorrow night to help un-confuzle this brain...
Friday, November 17, 2006
oooohhhhhh. i am so excited!!!
AND...
only four days till thanksgiving break...
YIPPEE!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, November 10, 2006
hooray for relaxing...
BUT, grades later....for now, it's some fun and relaxation!!!!!!
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
A bit o' sunshine on a rainy day...
walking past it makes my day a bit brighter. : D
oh silly, silly me.
Sunday, November 05, 2006
i wish...
if i wish upon a shooting star...will it go faster?
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Teehee!
- You remember all the little things...
- I can't help but smile...
- You see me for me...
- The giggles just spill over so often...
Peace Amid The Rush
...and yet I have become so thankful for breakfast with my King, because that is the moment in the day that He, and He alone, has my attention...without the distractions of work that needs to be done. I've learned so much in the last month of breakfasts, thought and prayed through so many big decisions...some exciting and smile-producing : ), some stressful and worrisome.
But, the advice, encouragement and truth in Proverbs--a perfect, month-long book--always seems to be what I need to hear at the moment I read it.
So many thoughts pressing, pushing through my head...and yet overflowing gratefulness for the abundant peace of breakfast with my King.
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
When Did You Fall
listen here
You’re all smiles and silly conversation
As if this sunny day came just for you
You twist your hair, you smile and you turn your eyes away
C’mon, tell me what’s right with you
Now it dawns on me probably everybody’s talkin’
And there’s something here I’m supposed to realize
‘Cause your secret’s out, and the universe laughs at it’s joke on me
I just caught it in your eyes, it’s a beautiful surprise
When did you fall in love with me?
Was it out of the blue
‘Cause I swear I never knew it
When did you let your heart run free?
Have you been waiting long?
When did you fall in love with me?
When did you fall in love?
Make your way over here, sit down by this fool, and let’s rewind
C’mon, let’s go back and replay all our scenes
You can point out the hints, the clues, the twists and the smiles this time
All the ones that slipped by me
I bet my face is red, and you can hear my heart poundin’
Well I guess it don’t matter now that I realize
‘Cause baby I missed it then, but I can surely see you now
Right there before my eyes
You’re my beautiful surprise
...when did it suddenly dawn on you?...
Sunday, October 15, 2006
No Sacrifice
Jason Upton
To you I give my life
Not just the parts I want to
To You I sacrifice
These dreams that I hold onto
(Chorus)
Your thoughts are higher than mine
Your words are deeper than mine
Your love is stronger than mine
This is no sacrifice, here’s my life
To You I give the gifts
Your love has given me
How can I hoard the treasures
That You designed for free?
(Chorus)
As long as it may last
To You I give my present
To You I give my past
Thursday, October 12, 2006
What?
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Monday, October 09, 2006
Romans 5:4
Patience develops strong character and helps us to trust God each time we use it until finally our hope and faith are strong and steady.
Timely and encouraging words found in the hallway of my dorm...
Saturday, October 07, 2006
Curiosity
i smile when something points to the wonder, the hope that perhaps my wish is slowly coming true...
Monday, October 02, 2006
My Prayer
*Still, by Hillsong
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Just me.
I am tired, but happy.
There's nothing better than going to bed with a smile on your face...
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Giggle.s.
the feeling of finishing a speech and knowing it went well.
thank you, Jesus.
Sunday, September 17, 2006
Life has been, well, life. duh.
- too much energy at midnight to go to bed, but not enough energy to get up for class in the morning.
- never ending homework.
- meeting lots of people. some more eccentric than others.
- realizing the little things about home that you miss...fair season, funnel cakes, fresh-cut flowers.
- becoming tired of eating in the same place 3 times a day, every day.
- being easily distracted by the "need" to check things such as facebook and email at 20 different times throughout the day.
- checking my mailbox at least once every day in hopes of mail...preferably real mail, not this university spam.
- realizing pringles should never be mailed. they arrive in a million pieces. *note to parents*
- realizing what 18 years in Lancaster can do to your speech.
- realizing the loveliness of naps and the importance of time management
- decorating a minute cubicle to make it my home, complete with pictures, pictures and more pictures.
- suddenly knowing that you can survive on your own. you CAN do laundry (even if at home you thought you couldn't) and you can make unique concoctions in the nuker.
- and you can't do anything without the ever present worship music and, when needed for the giggle.s., country music.
It's all good.
* * *
and this is so sweet (Rascal Flatts)...
I wake up and teardrops
They fall down like rain
I put on that old song we danced to
And then
I head off to my job
Guess not much has changed
Watch the clock
Head for home
Check the phone, just in case
Go to bed, dream of you
That's what I'm doing these days
Yeah, that's what I'm doing
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Monday, September 04, 2006
I Got a Feelin'
I don't wanna rush this thing
I don't wanna jump the gun
I really wanna say those three little words
But I'm gonna bite my tongue
Yeah, I'm just gonna lay on back
Leave it on cruise control
I'm gonna hold it all inside
Till the right time comes down the road
I got a feelin'My head's a reelin'
My heart is screamin'
I'm about to bust loose
Bottled up emotion
It's more than a notion
It starts with an "I"
And ends with a "U"
I got a feelin'
Are you feelin' it too
Sunday, September 03, 2006
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Home Sweet Home
A Picture Is Worth A Thousand Words...and i have many
Sunday, August 27, 2006
The Words Escapeth Me
homework has been tiresome, which causes me to look longingly at my dearest, most comfortable bed.
seeing as i need to go, i will. bye.
Friday, August 25, 2006
Monday, August 21, 2006
Incredible
And to hear the incredible news of the Spirit's moving among those most dear to our family.
I feel so blessed.
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Tuckered Out
i miss my PAers, but have met some really neat kiddos out here. although the challenges aren't over (goodness, i haven't even started chemistry or speech yet--EEK!) things are getting a bit easier day by day...each day it becomes my home even more...and i am learning to trust God for the little things, for strength for each day and relying on him for an organized brain that remembers all the necessary details.
my schedule got changed once again, so mondays are even busier, but tuesdays i have chemistry 8-9 and chapel 10-11. then i'm finished. WOW. thursdays are similar, except for a nursing class from 2-3 or 3-4 or something (note to self: i need to check on that...)
i have thought of several people who would love it here...i wish they could experience the worship, it's incredible. of course, i would welcome their company, but i just think that they would be blessed big by it!
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Goodbye
God,
Give me strength for the journey, grace for each moment and love for all those I meet.
Sunday, August 13, 2006
Resting In the Midst Of A Whirlwind
so many questions and wonders, yet so much excitement and anticipation. as i leave this place that i have called home for my entire life I look forward to finding myself, discovering who i am apart from all that i know, all that i have been nurtured by thus far...
...and yet, i look back and wonder if i have done all that i could. have i been the shining light on a hill for Christ to my coworkers who desperately need the hope of the cross? have i made a difference, have i planted a seed in their hearts, a seed that can be nurtured and cultivated by the Holy Spirit? i am fully human, and struggle to glorify God throughout the whole day, every day...but have i been faithful to the call, have i shown those in need that there is another way, a better way.
Sometimes only the honest words of a simple, piano-driven song can describe the jumbled mess of thoughts my mind tries to process...
But You see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me, completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my fraility
'Cause You see the real me
this path has truly brought me to a place of resting in His arms of strength, trusting in His grace as i depart into the unknown.
Monday, August 07, 2006
Creeping Yet Closer
- Tonight's fun-ness--- delicious food, warm hospitality, lighthearted giggles...just all-around, wonderful fellowship.
- A beautiful reminder of SMC, God's love and light, and a challenge to reflect that light...and the reminder of Pakistan-related memories that came along with.
- The love and hospitality of my own little world...and the encouragement and support they offer in a time of change and challenge.
- Those people who seem to "have it all" and yet sometimes must deal with too much that comes with that "stuff," making you grateful for what God has given you.
Friday, August 04, 2006
Waiting Ever So Impatiently
Recently, I have been questioning part of the hand i have been dealt in life.
Although part of me wants to trust the Creator for what is unknown to me, the other, larger part looks through any thin thread of hope to the doubts, the fears. This week J. M. Farro wrote, "Believing Prayer" which followed the devotional "Delay Does Not Necessarily Mean Denial." Both have found a permanent home in my new mail box, because they refresh and encourage even the most tired of hearts, the lonliest of hearts.
But, I still wonder, why?
Yes, who? is a large part of my question, but i have come to a place of trusting in that area. More than who, i question when. and if i am in a right frame of mind now, why not confirmation of some kind.
Impatience. Is it simply that impatient human desire to control that is overtaking my usually willing and patient spirit? Am I wrong to desire some sort of leading from God, something that will tell me that, yes I am following His will. Or, that I will hear a firm no. Is desiring confirmation in this area a wrong this to request from the One who watches over It All.
Those around me seem so happy in that place of blessing, of peace. Sometimes it seems that I am the only one questioning God on this issue. It's not that I don't want to trust Him. I do want to, and I want to wholeheartedly.
But, it seems that just as my story begins to change, as soon as I see a spark of confirmation, suddenly everything disappears and all is silent including the One I am trying to trust, leaving me more confused than before.
-Just some thoughts from my ever-speeding mind and heart on the topic of love, true love. Forgive me for rambling-ness resulting in confusion, or just confusion because of my questions.
Would You Go With Me
Would you go with me if we rolled down streets of fire
Would you hold on to me tighter as the summer sun got higher
If we roll from town to town and never shut it down
Would you go with me if we were lost in fields of clover
Would we walk even closer until the trip was over
And would it be okay if I didn't know the way
If I gave you my hand would you take it
And make me the happiest man in the world
If I told you my heart couldn't beat one more minute without you, girl
Would you accompany me to the edge of the sea
Let me know if you're really a dream
I love you so, so would you go with me
Would you go with me if we rode the clouds together
Could you not look down forever
If you were lighter than a feather
Oh, and if I set you free, would you go with me
If I gave you my hand would you take it
And make me the happiest man in the world
If I told you my heart couldn't beat one more minute without you, girl
Would you accompany me to the edge of the sea
Help me tie up the ends of a dream
I gotta know, would you go with me
I love you so, so would you go with me
Monday, July 31, 2006
Dear Friend...
Check out this link.
http://www.boundless.org/2005/articles/a0001303.cfm
* Amen! My thoughts exactly.
Saturday, July 29, 2006
Thankfulness
For me, work often means trying to ignore crude jokes, insulting names, and disgusting conversations. Even though I don't consider myself naive, I often find myself listening with stunned shock to the conversations between coworkers, wondering how someone can live with their mind constantly "in the gutter." The jokes that degrade women and leave them with no sense of self worth continue to show the incredible lack of respect that dominates society.
Although I survive work each day, I often leave with feelings of frustration, amazement, and, yes, even a grateful heart. Sometimes I question why I am thankful for those people who are perverted and crude; however, as soon as I get a glimpse of my life outside of work I quickly realize the tremendous blessings of God.
I reread my journal--the personal collection of my thoughts, fears and questions--to find that simply one year ago I was begging God for just one guy to become a close friend, one that would share his perspective on life issues. Someone who I could talk to as I would one of the girls, but for a guy's perspective. As I continued to question God's ability to grant this one request, little did I know that he was molding a friendship that would not only grow, but also lead to another great friendship.
Today as I look back, I realize the faithfulness of God when I see the two amazing guy friends that I have who are not afraid to share heartfelt perspectives on many of life's issues. I have seen the blessings of respect, integrity and honesty these guys have shown. Sure, they aren't perfect; they're still learning and growing in the Lord. But, along with other friends and family, they have shown me the unmistakable difference when a mindset is rooted in God.
So, to the men in my life who have been an awesome example of respect, honor and compassion, may you find the strength that is needed daily to keep up such an example in this fallen world. Thank you.
And to those who inspire me to thank these wonderful men in my life, to those who provide the stark, sometimes disheartening contrast, I pray that you would turn to the One who can meet your needs and quench your thirst for satisfaction.
P.S. Although I'm not sure that I made my point exactly as I wished, I hope these words of thankfulness with spur you on to shine like stars in a warped and crooked generation. (Philippians 2:14, 15)
Monday, July 24, 2006
When I Said I Do
These times are troubled and these times are good
And they're always gonna be, they rise and they fall
We take 'em all the way that we should
Together you and me forsaking them all
Deep in the night and by the light of day
It always looks the same, true love always does
And here by your side, or a million miles away
Nothin's ever gonna change the way that I feel,
The way it is, is the way that it was
When I said I do, I meant that I will 'til the end of all time
Be faithful and true, devoted to you
That's what I had in mind when I said I do
Well this old world keeps changin', and the world stays the same
For all who came before, and it goes hand and hand
Only you and I can undo all that we became
That makes us so much more, than a woman and a man
And after everything that comes and goes around
Has only passed us by, here alone in our dreams
I know there's a lonely heart in every lost and found
But forever you and I will be the ones
Who found out what forever means
When I said I do, I meant that I will 'til the end of all time
Be faithful and true, devoted to you
That's what I had in mind when I said I do
Truer than true, you know that I'll always be there for you
That's what I had in mind, that's what I had in mind,
When I said I do
Friday, July 21, 2006
Blessings
I AM SOOOO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
ok...breathe.
Monday, July 17, 2006
It's Becoming Reality
Classes at 8, 9, 10, 11, and 3-5 on mondays. finished by 12:30 on tuesdays. and so on and so forth.
hmmm. sounds like college : / (that's an inbetween smiley/frowny face, just to let you know)
to the boys out west, hope all is going well and that you are managing to stay cool in some way. it's unimaginable in here.
I Hope You Dance
I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake
But it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out
Reconsider
Give the heavens above
More than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
Dance
I hope you dance
Sunday, July 16, 2006
That's What I Love About Sundays
or perhaps just sitting and pondering anything that comes to mind.
...that's what I love about Sundays.
p.s. the times listed for these posts is really off...i'm not sure what's up. but it's like 3 o' clock right now even though it would appear as 11 in the morning, just for your interest. : )
I Got a Feelin'
I don't wanna rush this thing
I don't wanna jump the gun
I really wanna say those three little words
But I'm gonna bite my tongue
Yeah, I'm just gonna lay on back
Leave it on cruise control
I'm gonna hold it all inside
Till the right time comes down the road
I got a feelin'
My head's a reelin'
My heart is screamin'
I'm about to bust loose
Bottled up emotion
It's more than a notion
It starts with an "I"
And ends with a "U"
I got a feelin'
Are you feelin' it too
Saturday, July 15, 2006
The World
To the teller down at the bank
You're just another checking account
To the plumber that came today
You're just another house
At the airport ticket counter
You're just another fare
At the beauty shop at the mall
Well you're just another head of hair
Well that's alright, that's ok
If you don't feel important, honey
All I've got to say is
To the world
You may be just another girl
But to me
Baby, you are the world
To the waiter at the restaurant
You're just another tip
To the guy at the ice cream shop
You're just another dip
When you can't get reservations
'Cause you don't have the clout
Or you didn't get an invitation
'Cause somebody left you out
That's alright, that's ok
When you don't feel important honey
All I've got to say is
(Chorus)
You think you're one of millions but you're one in a million to me
When you wonder if you matter, baby look into my eyes
And tell me, can't you see you're everything to me
That's alright, that's ok
When you don't feel important honey
All I've gotta say is
(Chorus)
Friday, July 14, 2006
Back When
Don't you remember the fizz in a pepper
peanuts in the blottle at ten two and four
a fried bologna sandwich with mayo and tomatoes
sitting at the table don't happen much no more
we've gotten so complicated
it's all way overrated
i love the old and outdated way of life
Back when a hoe was a hoe
Coke was a coke
Crack's what you were doing when you were cracking jokes
Back when a screw was a screw
The wind was all that blew
When you said, "I'm down with that", it meant you had the flu
I miss back when
I miss back when
I miss back when
I loved my records, black shiny vinyl
clicks and pops and white noise, man they sounded fine
Had my favorite station, the one that played 'em all
Country, soul, rock 'n roll, what happened to those times
I'm reading street slang for dummies
'cause they put pop in my country
I want more for my money the way it was back then
Back when a hoe was a hoe
Coke was a coke
Crack's what you were doing when you were cracking jokes
Back when a screw was a screw
The wind was all that blew
When you said, "I'm down with that", it meant you had the flu
I miss back when
I miss back when
I miss back when
(Bridge)
I want the flattop strumming
Give me the old wurly humming
Oh, just keep it coming the way it was back when
Monday, July 10, 2006
Sunday, July 09, 2006
When Did You Fall
Chris Rice
You’re all smiles and silly conversation
As if this sunny day came just for you
You twist your hair, you smile and you turn your eyes away
C’mon, tell me what’s right with you
Now it dawns on me probably everybody’s talkin’
And there’s something here I’m supposed to realize
‘Cause your secret’s out, and the universe laughs at it’s joke on me
I just caught it in your eyes, it’s a beautiful surprise
When did you fall in love with me?
Was it out of the blue
‘Cause I swear I never knew it
When did you let your heart run free?
Have you been waiting long?
When did you fall in love with me?
When did you fall in love?
Make your way over here, sit down by this fool, and let’s rewind
C’mon, let’s go back and replay all our scenes
You can point out the hints, the clues, the twists and the smiles this time
All the ones that slipped by me
I bet my face is red, and you can hear my heart poundin’
Well I guess it don’t matter now that I realize
‘Cause baby I missed it then, but I can surely see you now
Right there before my eyes
You’re my beautiful surprise
Was it at the coffee shop
Or that morning at the bus stop
When you almost slipped, and I caught your hand
Or the time we built the snowman
The day at the beach, sandy and warm
Or the night with the scary thunderstorm
I never saw the signs
Now we’ve got to make up for lost time
And I can tell now by the way that you’re looking at me
I’d better finish this song so my lips will be free
Have you been waiting long, when did you fall in love
I kept you waiting so long, when did you fall
Have you been waiting long
When did you fall in love with me
When did you fall in love?
Saturday, July 08, 2006
Friday, July 07, 2006
Not a Day Goes By
Got a picture of you I carry in my heart
Close my eyes to see it when the world gets dark
Got a memory of you I carry in my soul
I wrap it close around me when the nights get cold
If you asked me how I'm doin' I'd say just fine
But the truth is baby, if you could read my mind
Not a day goes by that I don't think of you
After all this time you're still with me it's true
Somehow you remain locked so deep inside
Baby, baby, oh baby, not a day goes by...
...Minutes turn to hours, and the hours to days
Seems it's been forever that I've felt this way
Not a day goes by that I don't think of you
After all this time you're still with me it's true
Somehow you remain locked so deep inside
Baby, baby, oh baby, not a day goes by
* Lonestar