Random Sweetness

RANDOM SWEETNESS

If your greatest dreams came true, would I be in them?

If you had to set a life goal, could I help you achieve it?

If you laughed your head off, would I have told the joke?

If you tripped, could I help you up?

If you cried, would you want me to hold you?

If you drove 500 miles, would it be cause you missed me?

If you heard your favorite song, would it remind you of me?

If I asked you for another girl’s number, would you be jealous?

If I left, would you be sad?

If you saw a guy’s outfit at the mall, would you imagine me wearing it?

If you cooked a meal, would you wonder if I would like it?

If you were bored, would you ever think of me?

Could you fall asleep on my shoulder?

Would it hurt if I were mad at you?

If we both looked back on our best memories, would any of them be the same?

If I did something hilariously stupid, would you be there to take a picture?

If I reached my goal, would you be proud?

Do you still have the first thing I ever gave you?

If you had a secret, would you tell me?

If you couldn’t finish your chicken nuggets, could I have the rest?

Would you swear to never let me jump out of an airplane or drive a motorcycle?

Would you wait to see a movie so you could go with me instead of with your
friends on opening night?

If you just needed to vent, could I listen?

If I called and woke you up in the morning, would you be glad to hear my voice?

If you were lonely, could I hang out with you?

If you went on vacation, would you buy me a little post card with your last 4
dollars and write a little smiley face on it and give it to me when you got home because you forgot to mail it?

Would you dance with me under the stars in your backyard to the sound of my car stereo?

If you found a spider on your wall, would you call me at 11 p.m. just so I could come smash it for you?

If I asked you to do something difficult, would you trust me?

With a personality all her own

After completing a personality test, an assignment for psychology:


"Your score on extraversion is low...you are introverted, reserved, and quiet."


"Your high level of agreeableness indicates a strong interest in others' needs and well-being. You are pleasant, sympathetic, and cooperative."


"Your score on conscientiousness is high. This means you set clear goals and pursue them with determination. People regard you as reliable and hard-working."


"Your score on neuroticisim is low, indicating that you are exceptionally calm, composed and unflappable. You do not react with intense emotions, even to situations that most people would describe as stressful."


"Your score on openness to experience is low, indicating you like to think in plain and simple terms. Others describe you as down-to-earth, practical, and conservative."



So, what do you think? Is the test accurate? [The writers of the test recommend asking others if the results seem accurate : ) ]

Why, thank you!

"Gunner :-)",

Oh! How can I express enough thanks?! I'm so glad you knew exactly what I wanted for a present... I almost jumped out my skin when I saw it arriving! : )





In case anyone thinks I am being completely serious...this post was created merely for the intent of producing a smile. However, I did spot a llama walking down the sidewalk of the CU campus today...I just thought the homework had affected my sanity.

Oh Bother.

Today has not been a productive day. At all. I think I've accomplished two things so far. Laundry and reading an article for comp. That's pathetic.

I took a supposed-to-be-15-minute-nap-turned-1.5-hour-nap. Oops. And I'm still sleepy.

Oh goodness. I wish I get energized. But I just can't.

Well, enough moaning. I should get to work now...a full 3 hours later than I had hoped to get to work. oh bother.

Yes You Have

Every tree and every stone
Every rushing wind that moans
They sing Your praise
My God, they sing Your praise
Every star and open sky
Tell of Your glory divine
They shout Your praise
They shout Your praise, yeah

You’ve stolen my heart
Yes, You have!
You’ve stolen my heart
Yes, You have!
You’ve wiped away the stains
And broke away the chains
Yes, You have!!

With Your love You set me free
Three nails gave me liberty
So I’ll sing Your praise
My God, I’ll sing Your praise
Oh, with Your love
You forgave my sin
Forgot my past
And brought me back again
So I’ll sing Your praise
I’ll sing Your praise, yeah

If I ascend into the sky
Or hide behind the night
I can not run Your love is chasing me
If I fall into the sea
Your hand will rescue me
No one will take Your place
Because

This is all for You
Yes, this is all for You
You’re the King of the world
You’re the King of the world

Yes You Have
Leeland

Praying for YOU! ; )

Nothing is impossible
Nothing's out of reach
All good things will come to those
Who faithfully believe

When you see a mountain
Standing is your way
Known that it will move for you
If only you will pray

'Cause prayer can move a mountain
Prayer can stop the doubt
And prayer can calm the raging heart of unbelief
For I know when I go on my knees
God will move for me
And prove what He can do
Through prayer

Somewhere there's a miracle
Waiting 'round the bend
How He's blessed you in the past
He'll do it once again

You're not forgotten
Or been turned away
The Lord's about to move for you
If only you will pray

I know that He won't leave me all alone
The Lord has kept me safe till now
He'll show me when
He'll show me how
And I know that I can't make it on my own
But with the power of God in me
There's nothing great that I can't be
No mountain high, no valley low
Will change my mind 'cause this I know

Move, move, right now
Holy Spirit...

"Prayer"
Carman

Back to the Grind.

Back to the grind. Even though I'm looking forward to being back with the people, the work that awaits me back at CU does not excite me. Perhaps it's just the nervousness of knowing about all the work that needs to be done in the next several weeks.


I guess it just means taking it one day at a time and relying on God every step of the way.

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P.S. I loved every special moment of this break ; )

To wish for a simple answer

Sometimes I wish there was just a simple answer to calm the concern.

Word of God speak * Would you pour down like rain * Washing my eyes to see * Your majesty * To be still and know * That You're in this place * Please let me stay and rest * In Your holiness

The Life

This is the life...

: )

I can hardly contain my excitement

; D

Who Would Have Known?

A simple, dorm-room-perfect meal:

Grilled cheese sandwiches made with a clothes iron...

You'll have to ask me about it sometime...right now I need to get some rest for the two hefty days coming fullspeed at me. But, it's soon time to go home!!!!

6 days...

Only 6 more days!! If only there wasn't so much craziness between now and then...biochem test, nursing test, psych test, comp revisions and a spifo prep (<------ that is the killer)

I want to get A-'s and up this semester....but sometimes...okay, often...that seems close to impossible. I'm trying to remind myself that it's doing my best that counts, that B's are good too... but sometimes the pressure to get the top grades bears down...


Please pray that I will be able to focus this week, accomplish my work efficiently and completely...and be satisfied with the job I do...and the grades I get.



See ya soon! ; )

I have been blessed!

I guess you could say this is like a little puzzle....I hope it's not too hard : )

02.20.07

; )

Yay for concerts at CU!

Oooohhhhh...concerts! So much fun!

Featuring:
Newsboys
Kutless
Stellar Kart

A sign of the season...

; )

Snow Bunny

I'm a little snow bunny...and lovin' it!

: D


especially since i don't have to shovel : )

Some days...

Some days, like today, pass by so quickly...almost in the blink of an eye...

...but some days don't...

...and it is on those days that I am especially grateful for the memories, the pictures, the jokes...

; )

Interesting thought to ponder...

Okay, so I admit it...this might appear random...but it's still interesting.


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I think I heard of one that crawled at an amazing 5.972 miles per hour! That's pretty incredible for a snail!

Merry Christmas!

Okay, so it's not Christmas...but I saw this today and like it. Hope you are having a great day!

If one night...



A fat man comes...



And stuffs you in a bag...



...DON'T PANIC!!!
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I told Santa I wanted you for Christmas!


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Stephen Speaks

In case you didn't discover the addition to my blog...

Scroll down the page and you should find an iSound media player in the column on the right side of the blog. This media player delivers the tunes of Stephen Speaks, a music group that, somehow, helps me through hours and hours of studying. It has been good study music, as well as meaningful music. You will probably have to push play, but I hope it works. (If it doesn't you can go to isound.com and search for Stephen Speaks.)

I hope you enjoy it! : D

Brrrrrrr....

-5 degrees.

and only predicted to get worse...
BRRRRRR!!!
I could use more fuzzy blankets,
hot chocolate,
and hugs!

: )

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"...smiling just to see
the smile upon your face
these are the moments
I thank God that I'm alive..."

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photo courtesy of "gunner :-)"

some of my favorite things...

...sunsets...

...naps...

...inspiring quotes...

...worship music...

...giggle.s....

...reading just the right verse at just the right time...

...fleece blankets when it's snowing outside...

...hot chocolate...

So...

I heard a song today...


...and it made my heart smile.

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p.s. think 1-1 post ; )

Just for you...

We had a little fun in the snow today...

; )

1:23:37

; )

To a dear friend...

HE is your refuge, your comfort. May you continue to seek after His heart.
I love you. I'm praying for you.

Well, sometimes my life
Just don't make sense at all
When the mountains look so big
And my faith just seems so small

CHORUS:
So hold me Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace

And I wake up in the night and feel the dark
It's so hot inside my soul
I swear there must be blisters on my heart

CHORUS

Surrender don't come natural to me
I'd rather fight You for something
I don't really want
Than to take what You give that I need
And I've beat my head against so many walls
Now I'm falling down, I'm falling on my knees

And this Salvation Army band
Is playing this hymn
And Your grace rings out so deep
It makes my resistance seem so thin

CHORUS

You have been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace

Re:decorating

Introducing our new look...

...my cozy corner...

...and from another perspective...

...in the dark...

...and finally...

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...my favorite corner ; )

"...Guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long."
~ Psalm 25: 5

It was a little difficult to capture the gorgeous sunset on the way back to CU...I took a few pictures of semis in the process : )

Heehee...

New Every Morning

Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope:
Because of the Lord's great love
we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail...

...They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
I say to myself,
"The Lord is my portion;
therefore I will wait for him."

Lamentations 3:22-24

My wish...

Rascal Flatts

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow
And each road leads you where you want to go
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you
And if one door opens to another door closed
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile
But more than anything, more than anything

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small
You never need to carry more than you can hold
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too
Yeah, this, is my wish

I hope you never look back, but you never forget
All the ones who love you, and the place you left
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret
And you help somebody every chance you get
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake
And always give more than you take
But more than anything, yeah, more than anything

Just one more thing...

Thank you for encouraging me and challenging me to grow...I am so thankful that you love Him and have that deep desire to follow after Him.

I hope you had a good day!!

toodles! ; )

Happiness...

...I wish for happiness, but how many times do I thank Him for the little things that make me giggle? Perhaps they're even considered "ordinary" but they're special to me because they spark a memory and cause a smile to burst onto my face...or even irresistible giggles.
What's the cause? ...Maybe it's going away and then coming home...maybe it's the Christmas season...maybe it's the blessings of the last few months : )...who knows.


but, i'm thankful. and absolutely happy.

: )

I am HOME!!!!!!!!

I heart...

.Christmas.
.home.
.Christmas lights.
.cookies.
.movies.
.Christmas music.

~ happiness ~
~ peace ~
~ joy ~
~ hope ~
~ faith ~
~ love ~

Feet Wet

standing at the water's edge, i feel a trembling fear
as the waves crash 'round my ankles
feel the thunder in my ear
i feel the change is coming, the wind is at my back
but doubt overtakes me and my eyes turn to black
my past lurks behind me, keeping me on guard
i don't want to chance it, these steps are just too hard
i know He's behind me but what can i do
i'm frail, i'm human, and i don't want to fail you

i can't walk on water with these dirty feet 
but He can walk on water and He'll carry me

so put your arms around me carry me to sea
waves knock against me but i know I'm free
from death and loneliness, darkness, despair
this life is choppy but i don't care


Stephen Speaks, listen here...

Yay!

Yay for rockin' speech grades!!!!! So glad that the speeches are finally over and that they went a lot better than I expected at the beginning of the semester...

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Now...to take the plunge into this week of tests, tests and more tests....might not have time to update much this week because I will be buried beneath all my books and notes!

Thank You

Thank you for the surprise study break : D ... it was wonderful! Oh, and your pictures are amazing... (see the link "This makes me smile" on the side of this blog)

Tis a wonderful Saturday...

Tis a wonderful Saturday, full of sunshine, crisp air, studying, homework, studying, homework, and more studying....but no more speeches!!!!!! YAY!

And my computer is being weird and not allowing me to use my apostrophe. Yeah, so not conjuctions for me....

New found favorite study music...

listen here

So exciting!!!

I am so excited for next semester...not only for new classes, but also for the concerts that will be happening here at CU...

February: Newsboys with Kutless and Stellar Kart

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March: Shane and Shane

"The Potter's Hand"

Know that I am thinking of you...these words are my prayer for you...

"The Potter's Hand"
Darlene Zschech

Beautiful Lord
Wonderful Savior
I know for sure all of my days
Are held in Your hand
Crafted into Your perfect plan

You gently call me
Into Your presence
Guiding me by Your Holy Spirit
Teach me dear Lord
To live all of my life
Through Your eyes

I'm captured by Your holy calling
Set me apart
I know You're drawing me to Yourself
Lead me Lord I pray

Take me, mold me
Use me, fill me
I give my life
To the Potter's hand
Call me, guide me
Lead me, walk beside me
I give my life
To the Potter's hand

Memories...

Thank you for this weekend...it was wonderful! Of course, it was hard to come back...but the pictures and smiles made the adjustment so much better.

Thank you for the bit o' sunshine in my room : D

Somehow the memories make the distance seem shorter... I'm praying for you...

Life is Precious

Nothin' Quite Like a Smile...

There's nothin' quite like a smile that won't leave your face because you're home and spending all your time with those you care about and missed greatly.


God's timing is amazingly perfect, if only I could recognize that all of the time. I am truly grateful for all the blessings He has bestowed on me this year, they are innumerable...


He is the everlasting Jehovah Jireh, my provider...

Whaaaaatttt?

Chemistry is so confuzling...I am so lost in acids and bases I don't know what to do with myself. And the test will be mostly concepts...oh, dear.

i'm counting on that 3 hour study session tomorrow night to help un-confuzle this brain...

oooohhhhhh. i am so excited!!!

only four days till my extraordinary birthday

AND...

only four days till thanksgiving break...


YIPPEE!!!!!!!!!!!

hooray for relaxing...

it's so nice to finally have a relaxing weekend...despite the fact that i am a bit concerned about my politics test grade which should be returned to me sometime this weekend. uh, yeah. i might have to work a little harder for the last test.

BUT, grades later....for now, it's some fun and relaxation!!!!!!

A bit o' sunshine on a rainy day...

There is a blue VW Jetta outside of my unit...


walking past it makes my day a bit brighter. : D


oh silly, silly me.

i wish...

two and a half weeks cannot go fast enough enough...




if i wish upon a shooting star...will it go faster?

Teehee!

I love how...

• You remember all the little things...
• I can't help but smile...
• You see me for me...
• The giggles just spill over so often...
  

Peace Amid The Rush

Why is it that I always feel like I am in a rush...there are always things that need to be accomplished: studying for next weeks tests (4 in fact), writing two papers for next week, juggling a schedule for next semester, trying to decide whether to pursue a minor, things to read, meetings to go to...

...and yet I have become so thankful for breakfast with my King, because that is the moment in the day that He, and He alone, has my attention...without the distractions of work that needs to be done. I've learned so much in the last month of breakfasts, thought and prayed through so many big decisions...some exciting and smile-producing : ), some stressful and worrisome.

But, the advice, encouragement and truth in Proverbs--a perfect, month-long book--always seems to be what I need to hear at the moment I read it.

So many thoughts pressing, pushing through my head...and yet overflowing gratefulness for the abundant peace of breakfast with my King.

When Did You Fall

Pure sweetness...
listen here


You’re all smiles and silly conversation
As if this sunny day came just for you
You twist your hair, you smile and you turn your eyes away
C’mon, tell me what’s right with you
Now it dawns on me probably everybody’s talkin’
And there’s something here I’m supposed to realize
‘Cause your secret’s out, and the universe laughs at it’s joke on me
I just caught it in your eyes, it’s a beautiful surprise


When did you fall in love with me?
Was it out of the blue
‘Cause I swear I never knew it
When did you let your heart run free?
Have you been waiting long?
When did you fall in love with me?
When did you fall in love?


Make your way over here, sit down by this fool, and let’s rewind
C’mon, let’s go back and replay all our scenes
You can point out the hints, the clues, the twists and the smiles this time
All the ones that slipped by me
I bet my face is red, and you can hear my heart poundin’
Well I guess it don’t matter now that I realize
‘Cause baby I missed it then, but I can surely see you now
Right there before my eyes
You’re my beautiful surprise


...when did it suddenly dawn on you?...

Is it even necessary to say that I am smiling right now??

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No Sacrifice

Jason Upton

To you I give my life
Not just the parts I want to
To You I sacrifice
These dreams that I hold onto

(Chorus)

Your thoughts are higher than mine
Your words are deeper than mine
Your love is stronger than mine
This is no sacrifice, here’s my life

To You I give the gifts
Your love has given me
How can I hoard the treasures
That You designed for free?

(Chorus)

To You I give my future
As long as it may last
To You I give my present
To You I give my past

What?

It's SNOWING? In October???


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(if you didn't know, that's snow)

Ohio is just weird.

Romans 5:4

Patience develops strong character and helps us to trust God each time we use it until finally our hope and faith are strong and steady.

Timely and encouraging words found in the hallway of my dorm...

Lord,

I need to focus; help me to focus.
And help me to keep my gaze solely on you.

Amen.

Curiosity

Clue 1...


i smile when something points to the wonder, the hope that perhaps my wish is slowly coming true...

...or is it just a figment of my imagination influenced by the ponderings of my heart?

My Prayer

I pray these words on behalf of all those who are involved in or affected by the tragedy at home.

hide me now

under your wings

cover me

within your mighty hands

when the oceans rise

and thunders roar

i will soar with you

above the storm

father you are king

over the flood

i will be still

and know you are God

find rest my soul

in Christ alone

know His power

in quietness and trust

when the oceans rise

and thunders roar

i will soar with you

above the storm

Father you are king

over the flood

i will be still

and know you are God

when the oceans rise

and thunders roar

i will soar with you

above the storm

Father you are King

over the flood

i will be still

and know you are God

*Still, by Hillsong

Just me.

I am tired, but happy.

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There's nothing better than going to bed with a smile on your face...

Giggle.s.

the feeling of finishing a speech and knowing it went well.

42 minute phone calls with grandmas.

snail mail.

snail mail from a friend.

packages.

especially surprise packages.

healing.

miracles.

thank you, Jesus.

amen.

Life has been, well, life. duh.

Life has been typical of college, I guess...

• too much energy at midnight to go to bed, but not enough energy to get up for class in the morning.
• never ending homework.
• meeting lots of people. some more eccentric than others.
• realizing the little things about home that you miss...fair season, funnel cakes, fresh-cut flowers.
  
• becoming tired of eating in the same place 3 times a day, every day.
• being easily distracted by the "need" to check things such as facebook and email at 20 different times throughout the day.
• checking my mailbox at least once every day in hopes of mail...preferably real mail, not this university spam.
• realizing pringles should never be mailed. they arrive in a million pieces. *note to parents*
• realizing what 18 years in Lancaster can do to your speech.
  

And yet, adjusting has been amazingly smooth...

• realizing the loveliness of naps and the importance of time management
• decorating a minute cubicle to make it my home, complete with pictures, pictures and more pictures.
• suddenly knowing that you can survive on your own. you CAN do laundry (even if at home you thought you couldn't) and you can make unique concoctions in the nuker.
  
• and you can't do anything without the ever present worship music and, when needed for the giggle.s., country music.
  

It's all good.


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and this is so sweet (Rascal Flatts)...


I wake up and teardrops
They fall down like rain
I put on that old song we danced to
And then
I head off to my job
Guess not much has changed
Watch the clock
Head for home
Check the phone, just in case
Go to bed, dream of you
That's what I'm doing these days
Yeah, that's what I'm doing

Celebration

FIREWORKS!!!!


the beginnings of some fireworks...

my favorite picture...

I Got a Feelin'

Billy Currington

I don't wanna rush this thing
I don't wanna jump the gun
I really wanna say those three little words
But I'm gonna bite my tongue

Yeah, I'm just gonna lay on back
Leave it on cruise control
I'm gonna hold it all inside
Till the right time comes down the road

I got a feelin'My head's a reelin'
My heart is screamin'
I'm about to bust loose
Bottled up emotion
It's more than a notion
It starts with an "I"
And ends with a "U"
I got a feelin'
Are you feelin' it too

Welcome to Cedarville University

The Dixon Ministry Chapel

...and again.

The Centennial Library from across the lake...

...and up close


the Engineering, Nursing and Science building:
also known as my home for the next four years.

YAY!

YAY!

ECSTATIC-NESS!

Home Sweet Home

utter and absolute chaos.

our kitchen...
...perfect for mac&cheese, chai, ramen noodles,
and all those other college must-eats.

before...

TADA...all better.

honest mom, i did do some laundry.
see? it's even nicely folded.

A Picture Is Worth A Thousand Words...and i have many

are we there yet? hmmm...looks a lot like pennsylvania.

just for kicks.

Gorgeous-ity.

Destination Cedarville.

The Words Escapeth Me

someday when i have time, i will post some pictures again...i have taken several. but hope to take more some evening when all the campus lights are on.

homework has been tiresome, which causes me to look longingly at my dearest, most comfortable bed.

seeing as i need to go, i will. bye.

Inspiration

Inspiration. Memories. Relaxation.

Listen here.

Incredible

Chapel. It must be some of the best hours of my life...moving worship and challenging encouragement, humor and love.


And to hear the incredible news of the Spirit's moving among those most dear to our family.


I feel so blessed.

Tuckered Out

life. it has been so busy, so relentless throughout the last 48 hours. i am so ready to crash (not burn, just crash for the night). there are simply too many things to get done this weekend, so many details to keep on top of...and i have a feeling this is only the beginning, especially since classes didn't start yet. oh daily planner, wonderful art thou, my life saver. : )

i miss my PAers, but have met some really neat kiddos out here. although the challenges aren't over (goodness, i haven't even started chemistry or speech yet--EEK!) things are getting a bit easier day by day...each day it becomes my home even more...and i am learning to trust God for the little things, for strength for each day and relying on him for an organized brain that remembers all the necessary details.

my schedule got changed once again, so mondays are even busier, but tuesdays i have chemistry 8-9 and chapel 10-11. then i'm finished. WOW. thursdays are similar, except for a nursing class from 2-3 or 3-4 or something (note to self: i need to check on that...)

i have thought of several people who would love it here...i wish they could experience the worship, it's incredible. of course, i would welcome their company, but i just think that they would be blessed big by it!

Goodbye

Today I say goodbye to everything that I have called home for my entire life...I start anew in an unfamiliar place with unfamiliar faces and an unknown future. I begin to make my "home away from home"...

...It's crazy, exciting and scary all together.

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God,
Give me strength for the journey, grace for each moment and love for all those I meet.

Resting In the Midst Of A Whirlwind

so many questions and wonders, yet so much excitement and anticipation. as i leave this place that i have called home for my entire life I look forward to finding myself, discovering who i am apart from all that i know, all that i have been nurtured by thus far...

...and yet, i look back and wonder if i have done all that i could. have i been the shining light on a hill for Christ to my coworkers who desperately need the hope of the cross? have i made a difference, have i planted a seed in their hearts, a seed that can be nurtured and cultivated by the Holy Spirit? i am fully human, and struggle to glorify God throughout the whole day, every day...but have i been faithful to the call, have i shown those in need that there is another way, a better way.

Sometimes only the honest words of a simple, piano-driven song can describe the jumbled mess of thoughts my mind tries to process...

But You see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me, completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my fraility
'Cause You see the real me

this path has truly brought me to a place of resting in His arms of strength, trusting in His grace as i depart into the unknown.

Creeping Yet Closer

As the date of my departure from here creeps even closer, I am reminded of and thankful for several things...

• Tonight's fun-ness--- delicious food, warm hospitality, lighthearted giggles...just all-around, wonderful fellowship.

• A beautiful reminder of SMC, God's love and light, and a challenge to reflect that light...and the reminder of Pakistan-related memories that came along with.

• The love and hospitality of my own little world...and the encouragement and support they offer in a time of change and challenge.

• Those people who seem to "have it all" and yet sometimes must deal with too much that comes with that "stuff," making you grateful for what God has given you.
  

Waiting Ever So Impatiently

Recently, I have been questioning part of the hand i have been dealt in life.

Although part of me wants to trust the Creator for what is unknown to me, the other, larger part looks through any thin thread of hope to the doubts, the fears. This week J. M. Farro wrote, "Believing Prayer" which followed the devotional "Delay Does Not Necessarily Mean Denial." Both have found a permanent home in my new mail box, because they refresh and encourage even the most tired of hearts, the lonliest of hearts.

But, I still wonder, why?

Yes, who? is a large part of my question, but i have come to a place of trusting in that area. More than who, i question when. and if i am in a right frame of mind now, why not confirmation of some kind.

Impatience. Is it simply that impatient human desire to control that is overtaking my usually willing and patient spirit? Am I wrong to desire some sort of leading from God, something that will tell me that, yes I am following His will. Or, that I will hear a firm no. Is desiring confirmation in this area a wrong this to request from the One who watches over It All.

Those around me seem so happy in that place of blessing, of peace. Sometimes it seems that I am the only one questioning God on this issue. It's not that I don't want to trust Him. I do want to, and I want to wholeheartedly.

But, it seems that just as my story begins to change, as soon as I see a spark of confirmation, suddenly everything disappears and all is silent including the One I am trying to trust, leaving me more confused than before.

-Just some thoughts from my ever-speeding mind and heart on the topic of love, true love. Forgive me for rambling-ness resulting in confusion, or just confusion because of my questions.

Would You Go With Me

Would you go with me if we rolled down streets of fire
Would you hold on to me tighter as the summer sun got higher
If we roll from town to town and never shut it down

Would you go with me if we were lost in fields of clover
Would we walk even closer until the trip was over
And would it be okay if I didn't know the way


If I gave you my hand would you take it
And make me the happiest man in the world
If I told you my heart couldn't beat one more minute without you, girl
Would you accompany me to the edge of the sea
Let me know if you're really a dream
I love you so, so would you go with me


Would you go with me if we rode the clouds together
Could you not look down forever
If you were lighter than a feather
Oh, and if I set you free, would you go with me


If I gave you my hand would you take it
And make me the happiest man in the world
If I told you my heart couldn't beat one more minute without you, girl
Would you accompany me to the edge of the sea
Help me tie up the ends of a dream
I gotta know, would you go with me
I love you so, so would you go with me